Wednesday, April 27, 2005

stress

upset about my stepdad,
who says that he cries every day.
angry at my mother for laughing while he told us.

upset about my sister,
who is pregnant again.
angry at her and her husband for being so stupid and clueless.

upset with my son,
for skipping school. again.
angry at him for being sneaky and lying to me.

upset about money,
worried about the bills.
angry for feeling like I will never be stress free.

upset with myself when I let the darkness in.
upset with myself for thinking there's no way to win.
worried about what will happen if I fall apart.
worried where everyone will go to pour our their hearts.
angry at myself when I don't give a shit.
angry at myself for losing it.

5 comments:

dick said...

There's not a living soul who hasn't felt that way or is feeling that way now.
Thanks for sharing, we are all there with you.

Tisha from Texas said...

Sometimes losing it is an option worth taking. You can't save the whole world, only your sanity.
Breathe, relax, and take a break.
Someone close to me said this and it is true about borrowed stress:
It's not my baby so they can rock it.
Cold, maybe. But truth is the world is full of problem makers and problem solvers. Solvers get to take a sabbatical every now and then. Its your turn.

Raehan said...

Hi! Sorry you are feeling stressed. I agree with both previous commenters:
1. We've all been there.
2. You can only control what you control and then you have to let go and focus on pampering yourself.

Additional advice: Would a long hike or walk help?

Hope you feel better soon.

panthergirl said...

I'm hoping that even just writing that was cathartic for you. It certainly works for me.

Hang in there, kiddo.

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